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:C

Remember who ran from Bukit View Sec all the way to the carpark just to see you?


Met up with Advisor Park to go for brekkie today! Stupid advisor, always look down on me -___-. Took the red line to Nexus Audi at 11.04. Took so phucking long before we {bro & i} reached. Nevermind, it was deliberate though. Hm, nothing much happened today. Oh, before i go, do not watch Marilyn Manson's videos. It is rated M18 by me u___u. Lolz, i still love em though! :D



k.
You've been warned. o.o

Phuck you.
Phuck your childishness.
So old already, still behave like that.
Even i find you phucking pathetic.

Audrey's on her way to Korea now ~ Girl, you'd better take care or else .. i don't know, hah! Did a lil evax today with Yong Mei & Wei Wei. Got a total of ... don'tknowhowmany contacts. Got 5 myself. n___n. First time do also can get so many, feel so proud of myself! :D Today's CareGroup also quite pathetic lar, 4 people only =____= Then the Ben say that he'll come but in the end also never turn up. Zzz lar. I suddenly miss Eugene :C

Wait, he's back now right? :D That means Xuan Wen's back too! Wheeeeeee ~ She said she's brought things for "us" (the clique, perhaps?), and that she took an hour and a half to find em. So sincere :D Don't worry, Xuan Wen, i will love your prezzie, for sure. C: Sianz, now i have to choose whether to attend WordForLife or Saturday's service. Wth can. Why can't i attend both?>:C




k.

List down 20 people you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions till you named the 20 names.
At the end of these, choose 5 people to do this.

1. Rubin
2. Audrey
3. Sharmain
4. Elaine
5. Samuel
6. Xuan Wen
7. Ying Shuang
8. Priscilla
9. Wen Liang
10. Sheng Hao
11. Jason
12. Mr Teo
13. Ru Xi
14. Xing Jin
15. Nicola
16. Nicole (Lazaroo)
17. Yong Mei
18. Jiang Shan
19. Dewen
20. Eugene

Q: How did you meet 14?
A: Xing Jin; Math class :D

Q: What would you do if you don't meet 1?
A: Rubin; I don't know

Q: What if 9 & 20 dated?
A: Wen Liang & Eugene; I wouldn't be surprised. They make a great pair ;D

Q: Will 6 & 17 date?
A: Xuan Wen & Yong Mei; Uhh, no. -_-

Q: Describe 3.
A: Sharmain; Mature, really random and happy. C:

Q: Is 8 attractive?
A: Priscilla; Yeeeah. C:

Q: Describe 7.
A: Ying Shuang; Happy-go-lucky and gives free hugs :D

Q: Know any of 12's family members?
A: Mr Teo; I know he has a wife and 2 parents =X

Q: What will you do if 18 broke up?
A: Jiang Shan; Treat her to ice cream everyday o__x

Q: What language does 15 speak?
A: Nicola; Mainly English & Chinese.

Q: Who's 9 going out with?
A: Wen Liang; Nobody, i think

Q: How old is 16?
A: Nicole; 12 going on 13 C:

Q: When was the last time you spoke to 13?
A: Ru Xi; A few days ago =X

Q: Who is 2's favourite singer/band?
A: Audrey; AMBERLIN! :D

Q: Will you ever like 4?
A: Elaine; I think i already did =X

Q: Will you ever date 1?
A: Rubin; For sure!

Q: Is 19 single?
A: Dewen; I think so ....

Q: What's 10's last name?
A: Sheng Hao; Park!

Q: Will you ever be in a relationship with 11?
A: Jason; Uhhhhh, no -_-

Q: Where does 6 live?
A: Xuan Wen; Hillview Drive.

Q: Favourite things about 5.
A: Samuel; Determined, optimistic and his alcohol stash. C:

Lastly, 5 people you want to do this:
1. Nicole (Lazaroo)
2. Mr Teo!
3. Eugene
4. Elaine
5. Any one of the 20 listed above.

Went out with Audz to Vivo today to buy her adidas shoes for her Korea trip which is in 2 days' time. Although most shops had discounts for selected items, the items were not really appealing D: We had fun @ Pull & Bear where we picked clothes for one another. Audz had her shorts on the entire time and had difficulty putting on a miniskirt. So lol can? Hahar.
Headed to CSC after that to meet up with Mr Flab via taxi. The taxi driver so funny lor. He owned Audz & me =___=. Too pro liao, hahar. Bowled for a game and a half before heading home. My score sucked today. >___<.

Gonna change the songs in my playlist soon. Expect some heavy metal stuff. C:



k.

I realized that i have become more prone to crying ever since ... idontknowwhen. Everytime i witness something sad (eg. Death) i'll cry. Or at least shed a tear or two. Even when Mrs Tham talked to us about the China 'Quake thing, i felt my heart scrunching up. It's so unlike me. I wouldn't have believed it if i knew about this emotional rollercoaster thing a year or probably 2 ago. The old me would say 'Also not me wad, cry for what!!', whereas the new me would say 'Oh my, that's terrible', then sob. -__________-. Good or bad, i don't know. Cos on the bright side, i've learned how to understand people's feelings, while on the other side, i'm not happy.

It's like i'm crying for every single facken tragedy that's happened in this world. Nah, maybe i'm thinking too much. I ought to feel down, cos it's almost the time of the month. PMS disaster. -_- ughhhhh.


'I've got an F and a C and I got a K too, and the only thing that's missing is a bitch like U'.
Coolness.
Taken from (s)AINT - Marilyn Manson



k.
I miss me :C
I miss you :C
Where'd ya'll go?

PHANTASMAGORIA: THE VISIONS OF LEWIS CARROLL!
A movie starring Marilyn Manson as the author, Lewis Carroll, & model Lily Cole as Alice.

Watch.


Nooo, it's not a fairytale. It's far more than that. Oh cmon! It's produced and directed by Marilyn Manson! It's gonna be goooood. :D Oh yah, did i mention that i bought this yesterday?

I have another swollen lymph node.
The bad things just keep comin, don't they?




k.

Went for Parents meeting session today with my daddy. Same ol thing lar. Lucky Mdm Chen & Chew Chew never say anything bad about me :D they even said i was sickly o.- maybe cos i slept one too many times in class :p

Thennn, went for 2nd service with Eugene & Jiang Shan. Had a great time. We sat at one of the last rows, and the experience was really cool! Eugene ah, Eugene ... at church that time not high, other places then high. How cannnnn. -_-. Today's teaching was about .... fasting, yes. Motivates me to start fasting for Jesus asap! XD Zzz, my eye's still swollen and red. What to do, see too many bad people liao. Hahar.



-k.

Cried a total of 3 times today. I didn't show it, so you might have missed it. Had a riff with my parents just now. Ended up with a huge cut on my hand. Sorry clique-ers and hunz, i hurt myself again. :C never seen myself bled so much before, it was phenomenal yet quite shocking. It's stop bleeding now, so don't worry so much. C:

Caregroup was cancelled today (wth) cos there were only Eugene & me attending =____=. Wei Wei got lost somewhere in Pasir Ris and others just couldn't make it. Zzz. Tomorrow meet-the-parents session leh, sianz. That Mdm Chen & Chew Chew sure suan me like hell lor. Gah, my eyes are so swollen now it hurts even when i look at bright lights.

Oh yarh, Mr Teo, if you ever were to read this, cheer up okay? See you so down, it makes everybody down :C What's worse, you're not gonna teach us again! D: I bet you that the next teacher will never teach as good as you did. I'm starting to worry if i'm ever getting that A again.




-k.
PS. It's the holidays! Don't stay cooped up in the house! Get out there and have some fun!

Drank beer & gin-mixed-with-coke-and-some-other-stuff today. I got super high okay? Thanks WL & co for the gin-thingy. And hor, i have another beer by my side again! Wahaha. Lolz. Addict @__@.

Like i said, i got super high, so today wasn't such a bad day. Didn't attend the science course cos i had a dental appointment later in the afternoon. That's why i'm at home now XD dentist said that i needed to get braces, and extract 4 teeth. Even if not 4, at least 2. W. T. F. H. And it's so ex can? $2500-$3500. Sianzzzz.

Hm. Someone else called me a bitch. What to do, some people don't know how to use words properly. I won't call that person something mean lar, haha. Gosh, i feel so peaceful now -_-'. I miss the gin thingy, i gulped it down when i was on my way to meet my daddy. Wth -_-'. Now, i'm starting to like school, cos everyday there's alcohol. Thanks ah Sam, WL & whoever else who has alc. You make my day. :D Not (maybe never) forgetting the clique-ers too. The towel fight we had today was memorable. :D


-k.
PS. You suck C:
PSS. Let's get it over and done with.
PSSS. I WANT BEEEEEEER!

Do you know that drinking soymilk is actually more effective than drinking milk? It gives almost twice as much calcium as milk does! :D i feel taller already XD

I MISS THE BEACH!
I WANNA GO TO THE BEACH!
That time go West Coast Park also got no beach,
Cannot go topless, lolz. =X
Still.
I WANNA GO TO THE BEACH!




-k.

My day started off very lonely, cos i recieved an sms from hunnybunny that he won't be smsing me when his bill burst. What to do lar, can't expect everyone to reciprocate. Saw gifts Daddy brought home from his Thailand business trip. It made me tear, cos i feel so goddamn guilty. So, i tried to talk, tried to communicate. It failed, but it is quite impossible at the first try. Went off to {clique's day out - refer to clique's blog for more details}.

Came home happy happy. Showed Daddy some photos i took. Ironically, we quarreled again afterwards. I made him tear, and he made me tear too. Daddy, you want me to leave the house, no problem. I'll leave when i feel like it. Mommy saw the attitude i was giving Daddy and tried to be the peacemaker, but to no avail. But thanks Mommy, cos you did try to explain. Seeing you so caring and ... motherly makes me cry too. I've never felt so misunderstood in my life. But if Daddy really can't stand my presence, sorry Mommy, i have to leave.

Whatever.

-k.

Went bowling @ CSC with Audz, Nicola & Prisz. Had a great time :D photos taken today:



Hees. Rockers.




-k.

Xuan Wen, don't think too much kay? Yknow i'd never say that about you. C: Anyway, i predicted that today would be another emo day, but surprisingly, it wasn't soooo emo.

My darling got sore eye leh! So poor thing :C

Elaine cried today, for like 3/4 of the day? Sigh. See her like that i also heartpain, but still ...
Went for Caregroup after school. Took some photos :D

Wahlan eh.
I'm not siding anyone, kay?
But that was totally uncalled for.
And it wasn't a very nice thing to do, or say.
There's a time to discriminate,
Hate every motherfucker that's in your way.


{ i'll pay up $0.50 tomorrow, sorry }

My life's taking a wrong turn. Everything just seems so ... meaningless to me.

Today was my emo day at school. Emo this, emo that. But Audrey today also quite emo. Sigh. Audrey! Better not follow in my footsteps hor. My case is already ... almost beyond hope. Luckily, Audrey was happy again during recess, yay! Haha. Got back my Geog & History scripts today. Failed Geog, haha! Lowest in class seh. Passed History though. Heh, expected. Oh yah, i passed my Art too. 60.6. Lolz. That was unexpected.

So, what does it mean to 'expect the unexpected'? Cos if we're doing that, we're expecting again. Hm.



-k.

What i really am.
I myself am not even sure.
I feel like i'm losing myself.
I don't know what i am anymore.
Maybe i should be what he says.
He says i'm emo.
He say i'm a freaking hongster.
So maybe that's what i am.
An emo hongster.

{ This is meant to be yesterday's post }

I attended both services, so fun can? :D The first service was for mothers, so it wasn't as fun as the second. Wahlau, Nicol could only attend the first one, but then they never do the converting session! Wahlau eh. If not she could be my first convert lor. Sianz!

Hm. Before the first service, i went to OG with Ru bin & Ben. So funny can? We go up to the 4th floor, then go down again. Then go up again. So lolz lar. Then Ben go and bring us to the top floor, which was selling pillowcases and stuff. Can't explain how funny it is, but i really lol-ed (in my head) there. Then my trainers which costed me $100 + cut my ankle and gave me a blister! It hurt when i walk, but not when i jump. Weirdness.

Hm. Then after the 2 services, my daddy, my (super chio) brother and i went for a movie. We watched Speed Racer @ Jurong Point at about 9 in the night. So cool to catch a late night movie. Heheh. Speed Racer was cool, but it's not epic. Well, maybe not as epic as LOTR or Moulin Rouge!. But okay larh, the storyline just went off a teenylittlebit.



Harhars. It was a fun day. Saturdays' always my fun day. :D

-k.
P.S Dewen said my shoes were damn cool, and that he liked it. How cool is it to be complimented by your unit leader!! :D

Today started off well. Math was great; i scored 44/50 for my MYE. Woohoo. English was .... boring, as usual. Recess was just ... sucky.

Lazed around as i (deliberately) didn't bring my wallet, so no food for me. Then, there was this commotion about 'the throwing of a plate' (?). When it was time to gather, we were literally roasted under the hot sun. And that (censored) Mdm Chen was like taking her own sweet time lor. When we were all squishing and pushing to get to the 3rd floor, Xing Jin pulled my hairband off (again). I was like totally pissed, and i could have swore all i knew right there.

Then came along Samuel (2e3), who begun to trip me and lucky him, he succeeded. I shouted at him. I felt sorry though, for it wasn't totally his fault. But, what to do lar. Who ask them make me so angry. Like i said, being angry really takes most of my energy away. So, during ipw and science, you can see me lying on my table. Not sure if you can hear me snore though, haha.



-k.

Had Art exam today. Didn't really have trouble with it.

Went out with my clique + Samuel today! It was uber fun. :D Shan't elaborate cos Audrey has already posted all about it in her blog. Go check it out yeah! XD

I won Samuel in Daytona. WAHAHAHA.



-k.

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is You

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you



To my dear xiaobin.
Happy 1 month anniversary. C:
Although it was 2 days ago ...
C:

About yesterday's Literature paper .............. i could manage it, but i was too lazy to do the 10m & 8m questions. Seriously, i just wrote a general summary and did not bother to elaborate. Ho ho.

Today .. was fun. C: Math was unbelievably simple (though i had some careless mistakes), and i'm proud of my ability. Heheh. Went to CSC with Samuel, Wei Qiao, Wei Xiang, Jason, Lay Jun, Karin, Regina, Sharmain, Wen Liang and my brother today. We went to bowl (duhhh) and my forearm is numb cos of it. o______x. How to do art later. Sianz.

My highest score = 60 (damn noob lar, can?)
My record = 6 consecutive gutters. C:
No. of strikes/spares = 2 strikes by yours truly :) 1 spare by the almighty Wei Qiao.


Then there was this guy who played by the name 'Law'. He damn pro can. Never strike also will get spare wan. Watching him play was rather .. entertaining. Harhar. My clique's going out tomorrow! Yippee. C:



-k.

Titanic scene in Hokkien. So lolz.



Rihanna's new video. I don't like it.

I really wanna change my character. It's no fun to be sad all the time. I wanna be like Elaine ... or maybe Audrey. Happy people. Heh. I emo, everybody emo. Not nice leh. So inconsiderate. Sigh.

Today's Caregroup session was nooot fun, for once. I didn't have fun :C well, i didn't have as much fun as before. Maybe i was too emo? Lolz.

Change from emo - happy.
Easy to say lar, not sure whether easy to do or not.

Sianz.



-k.

Just realized that i've been using this skin for over a month. I still love it though, haaahz.

Audrey has revived her blog! And it's as Audrey as ever! XD Her blog posts are so entertaining ... lolz. Everybody's posts are entertaining as long as they keep me busy. Heheh. Tomorrow got caregroup leh, so happy. I love my caregroup. And my shepherd's fawesome. She's a breakdancer. ;D BUT. Tomorrow also have E. Lit paper. Sianz!

(Lol, i shall post in broken english :D)

As to what happened earlier today, i don't wanna talk about it luh. Don't ask me about it, cos i won't tell. C: Recently, i've noticed that indeed we do get very active when we're Sec 2s. Some of my friends (am not saying who) have started asking me for tips and tricks on how to 'get the girl'. Funny lehs. Haha. But, being my usual helpful self, i did help them. Not that i'm a pro lah, just share some experience lor, haha.

I feel hungry. No wait, i don't. I keep having this feeling like 'i'm hungry but i don't feel like eating'. It's not pleasant ... ;C. I love to eat! Ahahaha. Seriously, like i'd eat anything, but i do take into consideration the amounts of fat or whatsoever. C: But a little fat won't hurt, right? C:



-k.

I just experienced the most traumatic moment of my life.

Even when somebody opens the door,

I'm suddenly afraid.

Used to be brave, but now i falter ...



-k.

Never forgetting the ever-entertaining Eugene C:


Heheh. C:



Like shepherd, like sheep. Haaaaaaaaah.

Eugene rocks luh. C:
My super-chio brother rocks too. Lolz. :D


- k.

Today i very happy leh. Lolz.
HEAR THIS EVERYONE: THE USUALLY EMO KATHARINE IS HAPPY TODAY.
Lolz.

Went for Church Service today. Had a fun time. C:. Maybe it was cos i sat beside Eugene? Or maybe cos everyone's happy today, ahahahaahz. Sad thing is, I sang too much till my throat hurts now. Booooo. :C.

Attended my couzie's wedding after that. It's held at a church :D We even had a time of worship for God, like how cool is that? And the bride damn chio lor. Hm, i'm guessing that she's of an indian and chinese accent. Seriously, the sight of her (or her sister :P) takes my breath away. :0. Haaahz.

Shall highlight something i learned during Teaching today. Heheh.

Hebrews 13:17
17Obey your leaders and submit to their authority. They keep watch over you as men who must give an account. Obey them so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that would be of no advantage to you.

Get that into your heads, people. Leaders are chosen by teachers or whosoever that is of a higher rank. They are chosen for a purpose. So, respect them and it'll make their jobs much much easier. C:


God bless all.
- k.

Had the MT Paper 2 & 3 today. Sianz lor. I totally screwed it up. Sigh.

I don't know why i always wait till the last minute and then do my paper. Goddamned paper. Haah.

Pssh. No mood to post. Maybe tomorrow.



- Squirt Leader k.

Hm, i've always thought that things happened for a reason, and i know i have not made the wrong decision in letting God into my life. My brother told me something that came as quite a shocker to me.

"Jie, you know hor, you're the only one that can make Wei Wei smile in the caregroup. It's like a miracle, you know?"

It was flattering to know that. C=. Jesus has been expecting me all the while, now it seems that Wei Wei has been expecting my arrival as well. Heheh.


- Squirt Leader k.

'Have you ever hated on anyone?'

Hm. No. Not really. I mean, the word 'hate' is a word too strong for me to use. Hate is a simple word, it has only 2 meanings, and can be used as a noun or a verb. What i'm trying to say is that, the farthest i would go is only 'dislike' (God told us to "love our neighbours as ourselves" right?). So, now i'm trying to find the goodness in everybody so that i'll forever have a good impression of them. C= Do i sound like a good person? Heheh.

On the contrary, i do feel a special distaste towards some people, even some whom i don't really know. It's a funny thing, but it does happen to us all. But, hating and getting angry, it really takes away my energy. =____='.


- Squirt Leader k.